Sunday, December 26, 2010

Freedom of Letting Go

I want to share a breathe of inspiration with my friends.  They say one can only can have an impact through personal change…and I am really becoming a believer of this.   I have spent the last 20 or so years of my life…fighting to ….as a social worker  change systems…change the world  and in my personal life to…change parts of my relationships with others,  and to be honest at times to change others.  I am fascinated by the tension and frustration I really caused for myself…and never really learned this simple truth earlier.   In the last year and a half I have made many changes to myself.   I no longer feel as strongly that I am fighting against the tide.   I am much more accepting of the things I cannot change. In my personal relationships especially though I still acknowledge there are things I need out of my relationships that I don’t always get,  I have made the decision that I cannot expect that I will ever be able to get these things from others necessarily.   I have to be good to myself and get what I need,  and I shouldn’t have to try to change others so that I can get my own needs met.     I still challenge ideas,  and systems and things that don’t seem to make sense…but I am learning ever so gradually to “Let GO” of those battles that can never be won.   I still believe in advocating for those who are oppressed,  in enlightening the world to injustices…in empowering others to be their own advocates armed with the resources and information to stand up for themselves.  We all can have an impact on our world,  and our experience within it by making choices.   In 2011,  I am making a choice to believe in myself.  I am no longer my worst enemy.  I am my best friend.   I am committed to loving myself in 2011.