Saturday, September 18, 2010

Attitude...attitude...attitude....

10 Jan 2010 - 04:39:37 am

Attitude...attitude ...attitude..

I know...we hear this alot.
I don't know how many times I will say that Attitude is everything to my 8 year old daughter. 
I have always tried to be an optimist....and think positively....
As a Registered Social Worker by profession....and aspiring to be Art therapist...
I live and breathe encouraging others to ensure they maintain the importance of self care...
I always thought I tried to live by this too....
But 4 children later....one with Autism...I found myself really floundering in this area
I really was feeling overwhelmed....
My friends will be the first to tell you that I would drop by to "kidnap them" to take them out on the town for a "self care fix"  or a little shopping therapy....
but this really didn't put a dent in my self care needs...or my friends for that matter...

Things started to become much clearer for me when I started to work full time.  I wasn't drowning as much but I was getting very tired....burning the candle at both ends you could say...
How on earth could I get enough energy to get a little more time to myself...
I knew this is what I needed....but how.

I had to claim this.....
It wasn't until my son who has Autism started to have even more difficulties than he typically does that this need became apparent enough to me to make me act on it...

Thank You Sean for your screaming tantrums
thank you for being you and helping me realize that I needed help
and needed help fast....

What always had been my "excuse"  sort of became my salvation...
It also helped that we were in crisis enough that we asked for community support and finally have received much needed additional respite. 

This provided more opportunity to help Schedule....my needs....my time.
As a parent of 4 I often have felt guilty taking "me time"...
but in reality  I know if I don't ....I am virtually no good to anyone...

So....there it is...
I started to schedule me time....
I had always tried to schedule this....but the guilt always got in the way.
I always made sure my husband had his music.
So...I claimed this right
and started to go to the gym regularly...
then since I wasn't getting the results I wanted....
i decided I was worth spending a little extra for personal training....
2-3 days a week became 4 days a week.....

I now feel so much better....healthier....
and can't imagine not feeling this good...
It helps me cope better with some of the hard things I have to face...

It helped me see things clearer...
I was in a bit of a fog...and denial
and didn't see how much my family was suffering
through the increasing behaviours of my son's Autism....

It and some straight shooting friends helped me make a hard decision to
have my son recommended for residential treatment.  

I truely believe that the things that challenge us in our lives make us stronger....
I used to believe strongly that God would never throw anything our way we couldn't handle...
Well....I honestly can say I at times have had very strong doubts around this...

I now know that these things are interconnected and yes we will have doubts....
but if I hadn't had some of these more recent struggles...
I know I would not have heard my wake up call to
Get Up Wake Up....Shake It Up and Get Healthy!!!

Best Health to You in 2010......

Love You all!!

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