Don't get lost....

I really have to be more careful with my heart....   I guess you could say I could have a tendency to lose myself in passion...  which could be a really good thing...but can also not be such a good thing...  
Trust is something that has never come easy for me...but recently I have challenged myself to do one thing each day that scares the hell out of me...    and ...am inspired by some teachings suggesting that it is better to take some risks in relationships...  reach out,  and be hurt rather than never to have had these experiences at all.   I really want to embrace this idea....  but recently when I have I feel I am the one taking all the risks...and I guess I was hoping for some kind mutuallity....and of safety net with the whole deal...    I sort of feel I have fallen long and hard...   ouch...    This whole dating thing has me in a bit of a canundrum.    Friends are suggesting..  I think way too much... and really should just be out there " playing the field"  so they say...    I don't really feel this is my style at all.   I feel if I really am into someone,  and think they may be into me...what is wrong with getting serious...as long as there is lots of fun  ( and open communication)  in the process...  
Well... I think I am only a date one person at a time kind of gal...  
anything else just doesn't seem right.   I guess I need to make sure that this is mutual though or I could really get hurt.   
Met up with some friends from college the other day,  it was a fun time.   Its really nice to feel wanted by more than one person definately... but I also am not or never thought I was the one night stand kind of gal...(friends keep telling me to try this on for size...but really don't think it would fit...too out of whack with my beliefs about relationships, committment and love....)  I guess I am not just looking for great sex....    though it has to be part of the whole package...call me picky.....
so I clarified that I am dating someone else,  and though I was definately flattered,  and I guess part of me wonders but I can't really play these games.   I'll let you know if my tune changes....